In January we will be welcoming our second child, a little boy. We are so excited to share this news! As thrilled as I am, I’m in no rush for this day to come. Rather, I’m trying to savor the last moments of it just being me and my daughter. We have such a special connection, and I want to enjoy it before I have to start splitting my attention between two kids.
When I was younger, I wasn’t sure if I ever wanted to have children. I’ve never been a kid person and I was never excited at the prospect of having a baby. When I got married, I did know that I wanted to have children. However, I wasn’t someone who was overly excited about it. It honestly wasn’t until I had Lexi, my daughter, that I was able to appreciate how wonderful having children really is.
When Lexi was born, my first thought when I held her was that I was worried I would drop her. I had not eaten in days and was lightheaded, so I passed her off to my mom pretty quickly. We didn’t have a typical first moment of extreme joy. I was honestly just relieved to be done pushing.
It wasn’t that I didn’t love her right away – I did. But I think I didn’t truly understand my love for her until I got to know her. As each day passed, my love for her grew exponentially. I began to appreciate all it means to be a parent. I found joy in the contact naps and the cuddles. Now, I am overwhelmed with love and pride at each milestone that we encounter. I am eager for her to wake up in the morning. Spending my day with her is my favorite thing, even though it often means my hobbies and my priorities take a backseat.
I truly didn’t understand motherhood and its joys until I was already in it. Now that I know what it’s like, I’m so excited to welcome another baby into the world. I’m more excited now than I was before, because now I have a taste of what is coming.
My daughter Lexi taught me how to be a mama. I am anticipating the new lessons and joys that will come with baby number two!